Starting Over.....4/6/2015

So, today starts my second attempt at losing weight. Looking back at the last time I posted makes my heart heavy. The day before our lives would change forever. I was so happy. I was doing so good. Then the unthinkable happened. Since then, I have given into the anxiety and depression that follows finding out one of your children are gravely ill and the need to feel some sort of satisfaction, even if only momentarily, and ate whatever I wanted, when I wanted. I wasn't able to continue working out....and well, here I am. Not only have I gained every pound back that I had lost, I've put on more. Talk about adding to my already overwhelming depression!! Now that our lives have settled some and we have been able to resume some sort of life a midst this nightmare, I have to get back up and try again. I wanted so desperately to have the lap-band surgery done. That way no matter what happens I would not be able to return to food for my comfort. Which is a big fear that I have. But, our insurance doesn't cover it....so I will have to conquer my weight and myself. I pray my depression gets better as I begin to work out again. I know it really helped me before and I pray it will do so again and maybe even more so than last time. I have a secret fear of having breakdowns while I work out. Exercise truly cleanses your body and soul, and I have A LOT of emotional baggage tucked and hidden away right now.


*Ok, so I never got around to finishing this and posting it. Ha, I have been doing good with my eating (to a point) and I got on the scale and seen I had lost almost 7 lbs. since I last weighed. That was encouraging!! However, yesterday depression got me and I did not eat well. I had a good amount of chocolate, and missed lunch all together....

Monday, July 7, 2014

Today was SUCH a great day!!! I had class this morning and had 4 people come (Sheryl, Crystal, Annetta, and Ashley) Such a blessing to have women to dance and worship with!! I was so pumped I actually had over 8000 steps after class! Wow!! Then Sheryl was my workout buddy on the elliptical :) So nice to have a workout buddy!! Came home cleaned house...FULL of energy... Ate a late lunch/supper and then we went to watch Edgewood play ball :) Tomorrow is weights day.... OH MY! 

Meals:

Breakfast: 2 hard boiled eggs, apple/ coffee

Lunch/supper: salad, with lots of cantelope/ water

Snack: cantelope, some little chocolate chips..

Exercise: 1 hr. Devoted fitness and then 20 min. on the elliptical. 

Total Steps: 13,348!! Oh yeah! 

Water: 3 bottles. 

Sunday, July 6, 2014

:) Sunday :) Today was a great day of worship at church and then we went to the lake with Jamie and family. Didn't really have a whole lot of luck fishing, but we had a good time hanging out. Jacob played in the water, and we relaxed. Oh it's been too long! I so love going to the lake! Heather spent the weekend with a Darla, so she wasn't with us, and Little Emma was so great the ENTIRE time we were there, she never fussed once, she just happily played in her little pay pen we brought along... It was so nice :) Great Sunday evening. 

Meals:

Breakfast: grapes, cantelope, a little hash brown casserole and LOTS of watermelon!/water

Lunch: greasy Long John Silvers. I had forgotten how much grease food COULD have.. Good but greasy!

Supper: grapes, a couple cookies, some chips... Snackin'

Snack: when we returned we invited Jamie and family over for homemade icecream. 

Exercise: nothing in particular, but tickled that I got over 5000 for a non-gym day :)

Total steps: 5,197

Water: 4 bottles...

Saturday, July 5, 2014(Day 7 WS diet)

Day 7: Today you can have veggies and fruits(yay) along with juices. With the soup. 

Today I started out cleaning house as usual, then the kids and I went up to the produce stand where Eric and Heather were selling icecream, stayed there till around six and then went to a friends house for supper... So today was my last day... And you can so totally call me a quitter, but I did not follow the diet today. Maybe it is because I didn't follow it to the T, but through the week I actually GAINED 2 lb. that thankfully came back off by today, so my BIG weight loss is.... ZILCH! I'm positive had I just kept my normal eating habits along with my exercise I would be skinner than I am right now, lol.. What lesson did I take from this... Well, if you need a good clean out, this cabbage soup does WONDERS!! ;)

Meals: 

Breakfast: 2 apples

Lunch: grilled squash, zucchini and onions, ear of corn, and some grilled potatoes

Supper: hamburger, salad, and an ear of corn.

Snack: a little homemade icecream.

Exercise: well, Cathy and I took an evening walk after supper with the girls :)

Total steps:6,147

Water: 3-4 bottles of water

Friday, July 4, 2014(Day 6 WS diet)

Day 6: Today you many have veggies and protein along with soup. 

Well I spent the day babysitting and cleaning/snapping beans. Then we went to watch the fireworks. My legs are finally starting to feel better YAY!! Not 100% better but close. I'm glad to! I don't want to lead class again with hurting legs! As far as food, I have ate a lot of squash today. I've been busy and that was the quickest thing I could think to eat within my diet. I also had some cucumber and of course the soup... One more day..  Still haven't lost anything... In fact. I've gained a pound! But I'm gonna stick it through I reckon to say I completed it...also, I have been using salt a good but more than usual.. So it may be water weight.. We will see.

Meals:

Breakfast: squash and soup

Lunch: squash and soup

Supper: squash 

Snacks:  cucumber

Exercise: snapping beans....and more snapping beans....

Total steps: 1,862

Water: ummm not much :( smh!

Thursday, July 3,2014(Day 5 of WS diet)

Day 5: Today you can only tomatoes(6-8) and protein like chicken, turkey, or fish along with the soup.

Well, I knew today was gonna stink! I like tomatoes, but not THAT many tomatoes, I ended up with 6 ate by the end of the day. I'm not sure if I'm not doing something right, or if my little untimely cheats really hurt the diet, but I have seen no weight loss so far... Bummer! My legs are still incredibly sore from the weight lifting, I think I way over done it. I'm gonna have to tone it back some and work up to that... I got so busy I forgot about my awesome protein for the day, so I ended up with some tuna... :/ sigh!

Meals:

Breakfast:tomatoes and soup

Lunch:tomatoes and soup

Dinner: tomatoes, soup, and a small amount of tuna.

Snack: you guessed it... Tomatoes!! Lol

Exercise: not a lot, my legs are still hurting, but I did stretch them out good while picking beans. I was supposed to lift again today, but I knew there was in way!!

Total Steps: 1,952

Water: ? I have really got to start being more intentional with my drinking!!

Wednesday, July 2, 2014(Day 4 WS diet)

Day 4: Today you can have bananas and milk/yogurt along with soup. I have been looking forward to this day! Bananas!! Yumm!!

Today was an OUCHY day!!! My thighs are SOOOO SORE! I did however make it  through class and then walked on the treadmill for about 40 min. I was really trying to "work out" my stiffness and soreness, but... that didn't happen. I'm still crazy sore! I got Eric to give my legs a deep massage!! Oh my! Hoping it helps... Lol, before I go tomorrow evening to do it again haha... Something I've learned... Just keep swimming and it WILL get easier!

Meals:

Breakfast: yogurt and 2 bananas

Lunch: soup

Supper: banana, yogurt, soup.

Snacks: banana

Exercise:1 hr. Devoted fitness, 40 min. on the treadmill. 

Total Steps: 12,425

Water: 2qt.