6/24/14

Today was a pretty good day. I practiced some new df songs... I don't have them down enough to actually do them in class, but I'm excited about practicing them more and doing them in class soon.  Today was a good day with eating and exercising. My goal is to reach 5000 steps on the days I don't go to the gym, so I'm glad that I made it today :) I didn't do so well with water intake though. I gotta work on that!

Meals:

Breakfast: protein meal bar

Lunch: salad with ranch

Supper: deer steak and green beans

Exercise: 

Practiced df songs and really tried to keep myself movin.

Total Steps: 5,059

Water: 

1 qt.

Devoted Fitness....

Devoted fitness, such an amazing ministry to be a part of and I find myself being really bummed out. Today I had made an event, invited close to 200 women to come and try devoted fitness for free and only one showed up(which is a regular). I can expect some resistance to this ministry because well it has Christ as it's center and it will have opposition from Satan. Sometimes I feel like, "What business do I have leading this class?" I am extremely overweight, I am just now to where I can do the full hour without having to modify moves..... And a lot of times my self-conscious gets the best of me and I worry about what I look like in front of people. But I feel like God has led me to where I am, and though I feel completely inadequate for such a task, I know that God does not call the qualified, He qualifies the called....So with that in mind I have to just set aside my feelings of inadequacy and self-consciousness and do it. I may not look the best, I may not be the best and there may be many women in the class that would be way more qualified and visually appealing than I am to be leading it, but God hasn't called them, He's called me. So I will keep doing it, regardless of whether there is 1 person in class or 2, or 5, or 20....  I will set my feelings aside and I will lead the class into worship with God and trust that God will take care of the rest. God will make all of my inadequacies, adequate. Though totally scared walking into every class, I will trust that God will work out all of the rest if I am faithful and show up and be willing to allow Him to use me in this ministry. I pray for more women to come, not because I want to have a class full.... to make myself feel accomplished. But because I want other women to experience being able to worship and lean on God while pushing yourself to keep going when your inner self says, "I'm tired. Just quit." And honestly, it's no fun to work out alone, being around other women, especially women in Christ, it gives me motivation to keep going, to continue on my journey. My journey of losing weight and also my walk with Christ. To be able to share prayers and praises with each other after class and getting lost in worship together while working out and being there for each other is amazing. So I feel God is testing me. I feel Him saying,  "Angel, even if  only one shows up, will you be faithful? Will you do what I have called you to do?" Yes. I will. Regardless. I will pray for the growth of this ministry while I continue to be faithful in leading it. And I pray my willingness to be real and vulnerable will somehow be a blessing to someone else.....  Maybe someone in the same boat as I am in, who feels too self-conscious to come and workout will find motivation through me. That's my prayer. Lord use me. 

Session 2 starts now.... 6/23/14

So for the past while we've been busy with vacations, traveling and such and I have allowed my eating to go uncontrolled and just enjoyed myself. Being on vacation I haven't done the exercise that I should've been, and boy can I tell it. My weight definitely shows the lack of care and control that I've had. I got on the scale this morning and I was 314 lbs. A serious blow to my gut. But at the same time a renewed motivation. I refuse to allow myself to go back to where I was. So today starts session 2. I will be going back on my stricter diet and exercising three days a week for at least an hour and a half, while also keeping myself active at home so that the exercise doesn't end when I leave the gym. I plan to implement all of my previous things that I did to keep track of my intake and my weight-loss. Such as keeping track of my food intake with MyFitnessPal app and also my Striiv app. Along with and probably most importantly, my blog. It really help me keep my emotions in check. And it allowed me to express my inner thoughts without fear of judgment. My own personal sanctuary to allow myself to be real and give myself a sort of self accountability as well as tracking my progress and giving me motivation to keep going. I really believe Satan diverted my attention away from these things so that I would begin to fail. While having these things and using them I felt great. I had motivation, I had a visual representation of what my hard work was accomplishing. I so need that again, and I know that now. I allowed myself to believe that as I became more comfortable with the routine that I had that I could let those things fall by the wayside and still continue on my path. But the reality was when I let those things go, I slowly let my routine go. And with having two trips almost back to back, that hasn't help me either. But with all traveling out of the way, I am free to get back on track. And that is exactly what I plan to do. So no looking back, no regrets, just moving forward. Today starts Session 2.

Meals: 

Breakfast: protein meal bar, coffee /acv water. 

Lunch: fresh salad from our garden with ranch dressing /acv water

Supper: squash soup

Exercise:

1 hour df class, 15 min. on the elliptical, and housework.

Total Steps: 10,313

Water: 2 qt.

Weekly weigh-in 5/4/14

Well, today has been a running day!! I did remember to weigh-in this morning, but I didn't have time to take a picture. My scale this morning read 307 lb. So I have gained a couple back, but I'm not gonna let that get me down, it's bound to happen. So, I will be gyming 3x a week and really watching what I eat. Next week we are going to Ohio for 9 days to visit with family. So I'll miss a week of classes. But when we get back I'll be ready to hit the ground running! I am so close to the 200's!

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Oh my, just realized while typing the date that TOMORROW is weigh in day. I am afraid. lol. I know that I am higher that what I was, but I'm not sure exactly where I am at. Today has been a really great day! We had class this morning and we had a newcomer :) Her name is Rachel and seemed super sweet. Hopeful to see her back on Friday. This is my second day leading and I feel I am doing pretty good. I love Devoted Fitness. I am so glad that I can be used to connect other people with this ministry to. It is so wonderful to get lost in worship while dancing in His name to all His glory. Praise God! It is amazing to feel God carrying you through when you feel like you can't do no more. I have for too long neglected His temple. With His help though, I know that I can work hard, eat right, and get His temple back healthy again! That is an exciting thought!!

Meals:

Breakfast: almond butter sandwich/coffee

Lunch: soup/ acv water

Supper: chicken salad, a yogurt parfait/water

snacks: a couple fries

Exercise:
1 hr. df class, 30 min. on the elliptical

Total Steps: 

Water:

2 1/2 qt. 

Friday, May 30, 2014

Well, It's almost been a month since my last post.... I have been really busy with planning trips and such, I just needed a little break to focus on other things. However, I have continued to watch my eating, though I have allowed some unhealthy choices here and there. Weight wise, I was down to 302 lb. though with our recent trip to PA....not sure where I am on the scale now lol...I finished my CPR training today and am now an OFFICIAL Devoted Fitness Instructor!! I plan to start classes back on Monday, June 2, 2014. A new exciting/scary journey for me, but so glad I'm on it! Forget motivation....you HAVE to be there when you are the instructor HAHA! I am excited that this will help keep me in the gym and MOVIN! I know that I am really going to have to get busy again if I am to hit my goals, so please pray that the Lord would help keep me focused on my weight, eating, and exercise. It is so easy to get distracted and soon your eating and weight is the LAST thing you can think about. Hmmm, just thinkin' ..I need to create my DF fitness fb page!! I also need to clean house, eat!(I am SOO hungry), and get movin! I have been in front of this computer way TOO long today! I just need to say EEK! I am a DF instructor!! lol....That is how I really feel... Pray for me and my new classes!!

Meals:

Breakfast: Apple

Lunch: 2 apples lol

Supper: green beans, corn, meatloaf( my own little rendition)

Water:

Total Steps: 

I've been having a bit of a problem with my striiv not counting my steps with my new phone... We will see how tomorrow goes.

Thursday, May 1, 2014

My weigh in today was 304 lb. So I'm back to where I was :) I think I really needed that break that I had from blogging. I really needed time to just refocus on what my journey is. I had become kind-of stagnant in my journey. I was neither here nor there mentally. However, I have some new goals that have so-to-speak re-sparked my enthusiasm in my Journey. One is not really new...just dusted off and shined up metaphorically...lol. That is to reach the 200's. I am SO close. I was really getting bummed on myself that I was all BLAH when I was so close to my first WOO HOO! goal. But you know, that is just how emotions are...very unpredictable. I have a renewed ZEST to reach that goal. My second goal is to lose 10 lb. a month for a total of 50 lb. by our 15th wedding anniversary. I would be 254 lb. Only 54 to the end of my journey and the same weight I was in 1999 when we said our vows!! So even though the same small goals that I have had....a new bigger end goal to really grip my heart again. My eating has been better for the most part. I have refrained myself from eating during the night like I had started doing again. Not a lot...and *usually something healthy like an orange or something, but still at the WORST possible time to be eating it. Another side goal of mine.....I made up choreography to a song...and....lol, I can't even do the whole song without having to stop and let my legs rest. Soooooo, my first official day as the new instructor of our class is June 1. My goal is to practice this song like CRAZY until I can do it completely through without stopping. I have some work to do! Please pray for me and my journey. I need to drop myself at His feet and let Him carry me into this new chapter in my journey. Thanks!

Meals:

Breakfast: 2 eggs, protein bar/acv water

Lunch: salad with ranch/acv water

Supper: egg salad with a THM basic sandwich bun and one with a piece of wheat flat bread. 

Snacks: I have had 2 pears and an apple

Exercise:

1 hr. devoted fitness

Total Steps: 10,009

Water:

3 qt.